Today is not the end

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I was ready to put dinner on the table, the phone balanced on my left hand, fast fingers on the keyboard, as always when I vote for the PCA.
Then a beep, a notification of a blog online, and the news, written so simply, in black and white, no bows.
We all knew it, for some time, without being told that.
For many reasons, so closely following the show from the beginning, it was perhaps clearer to us than to the others.
Admitting that it was a certainty, however, we did not even speak.
Read it there, without notice, in a timeline packed with premiere, and returns, and enthusiasm for PCA, left everyone speechless.
Then the first reactions, some shy retweet but none found the strength to tell something.
Till, as so often before, the first to have a thought for fans, raw and true, just as he is, Jay Ryan.
And magically, one after another, all: the cast, the crew, a whole fandom, scattered to the four corners of the earth, all to write how much this adventure was great and inimitable.
All testify to an attachment and involvement never before seen for a TV series.
Hours and hours of messages, all deep, all touching.
Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, BatBForum… wherever you happen to have a look today, you would be invested by the endless, overwhelming testimonies of people who for three years have shared an extraordinary experience, absolutely and definitely unique, raising their voices today, sometimes emotional, sometimes even a bit confused, to tell how a TV show went beyond what is thought to be a TV show, marking their lives.
Schermata del 2015-01-26 00:35:25
If idealistically all wished that Beauty and the Beast was endless, realistically we all know to have lived three years precious, three seasons  strenuously took but in such a way unexpected.
Then the optimistic side of us, the reassuring voice of Reason whispers in our ear that we should not be sad, we had sooo much, everything we experienced together was not in vain, everything that is born will never get lost and we will continue in our lives, as in careers, enriched by all that Beauty and the Beast has meaning.
Schermata del 2015-01-17 01:40:30
It has a nice talk the Reason…
Today the Heart refuses to listen.
It is not the heart that stands still without a fight.
It is not the heart that accepts waste.
It is not the heart that surrenders.
But… but… the Reason today is indeed right.
There is nothing to do against a decision taken long ago.
A decision that recognizes predictable, natural.
Nothing more to fight for.
Nothing more to hope for.
Schermata del 2015-09-11 02:51:31
Perhaps it is really worth listening to the little voice today, and think that today is not the end, that will come the summer and will bring thirteen wonderful episodes.
And emotions, heart-pounding, chills and goosebumps, once more time, although it will be the last.
It ‘s a moment, unfortunately.
Thinking immediately runs fast in Toronto, the Studios, the set, where today the last month of the magic that has made this possible is beginning.
Three episodes will be filmed and over.
For real.
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Warehouses emptied, removed panels, small items stored, packaged costumes, the last light off behind a closed door, and… that’s it.
It will be over.
Yes, of course, there will be a party, and cupcakes, and greetings, promises to keep in touch, perhaps a few tears.
Then everyone will go his way.
As always, as at the end of each journey.
Via, momentum, new experiences and new adventures.
Someone together, someone for their lonely road.
And US???
Us who are thousands of kilometers away, in time zones away, bound to each other by something that now has won the distance… Us… how shall we say them goodbye???
How will we overcome the oceans and mountains, to be there to hug them, and hold them strongly and vibrate our voice so intensely and irresistibly to make them feel that we love them and we will never stop loving them???
The same posts, the same people, who flooded the social with melancholy sadness, this morning, they gave me the answer.
Yesterday, less than two hours before the news of the end of Beauty and the Beast was broken, we all, with the usual unfailing enthusiasm, with the energy of all times, began to vote to ensure a nomination to Beauty and the Beast, and Jay and Kristin as actors, for the annual edition of the People’s Choice Awards.
Amid such stunning commotion, amid the bewilderment, the melancholy, it was wonderful, overwhelming, seeing as nobody, NOBODY had thought, even for a moment, to stop voting.
Because it is useless.
Because there is nothing left to fight for.
No future guarantees.
No network to convince.
No advertiser to impress.
Perhaps because of that, this week, and hopefully next month we will vote like we never voted, with an intensity, a force, a determination that we not even know to have, but that is within us .
I’m doing.
And I know I’m not alone.
Because this time is useless … true.
This time we do it for them.
Because if Beauty and the Beast was a play, performed on a stage instead of a TV show broadcast on the screen, we would be the public, in the audience.
And we all would be standing, our eyes flooded with tears, happy with the naive happiness that only children or who know how a child experiences even can feel, our hands consumed  til the heat and the pain, with all the strength, up, up to the shoulders, unable to stop the clapping, for minutes and minutes to make them feel strong, even stronger in our applause, our warmth, our joy, our gratitude.
The practical utility?
Of a round of applause?
No one probably.
If not the awareness of having at least tried to push back, with the power of the that roar of hands the emotions that were raised from the stage to warm our hearts.
Our vote for the People’s Choice Awards this year will be our applause.
Our way of crying out loud as if the voice is to end now, as if there is no tomorrow:
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13 thoughts on “Today is not the end

    Sin bella said:
    15 October 2015 at 8:48

    Oh god here comes the tears again!!!!! Beautifully written Federica. Only another loyal Beastie can feel the heartbreaking pain & loss. This show means so much to heart & mind refuses to accept it…I’m I’m complete denial & pouring all my energy on PCA voting. Winning this award is the only way I can show the wonderful cast how much this beautiful show means to me😢😢😢😢.
    Thank you so much for another beautiful piece!!!

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      Angie Brush said:
      15 October 2015 at 9:37

      I’m right there with you,heartbroken & feeling much loss,& we’re all in this together,I’m crying too

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      Lost in TV responded:
      15 October 2015 at 14:02

      If I had written this one on paper, you should see the spots of my tears…


    Angie Brush said:
    15 October 2015 at 9:30

    I agree today is not the end.Me being a very dedicated fan of the 1987 version of batb I know first hand,we’ll be thankful we had 4 seasons & this show will never be gone,we have our DVD’s to watch when we need a batb fix,plus many family beasties to chat with on Twitter & Facebook,the show will be off but we will always be there for each other & support our Cast & Crew in anything they do in the future,because that’s who we are & they know this.Ron Perlman/1987Vincent I have followed since the beginning & that version will be celebrating 30 years of BATB in2017 in LA where it was filmed.I am upset that we won’t get more seasons but we will get closure with our version,whereas it was a very sad ending w/1987 version,who knows our Cast will be in other shows/movies& you might get lucky & meet them,also we have FB & Twitter to chat with them,they will not forget us as we won’t forget them,we are all family in this.Cast/Crew & Beasties forever. I can say I have been blessed with 2 TV versions of Beauty & the Beast in the last 28 years & still counting & S4 plus PCA’s next year,who knows maybe we will get to see them back at the PCA’s…BATB will live forever…Remember “Tale as Old as Time”.

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    Kristen Daly (@kdaly1423) said:
    15 October 2015 at 14:43

    Wonderful words so faithfully capture what this fandom is all about, this is life changing and the friendships made with people all over the world will endure, just like our love for this TV show. This fandom is something special, never to be duplicated and I for one am a better person for having been a part of it.

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    indah said:
    15 October 2015 at 16:26

    that was a lovely read thank you for putting my thoughts into words

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    CaroGdlF said:
    15 October 2015 at 19:02

    Totally agree FEDE. Wonderful and sooo lovely words. So touchy. We all feel in the same way because we love this show sooo much. I have never fell in this way. Proud to be a Beastie and we will never give up and as you said this PCA will be to say thank you for this unique journey. Xoxoxoxo

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    Candi151 said:
    15 October 2015 at 20:22

    I don’t know what to say. You’ve all said exactly what was on my mind as if reading my mind. I will never forget #BATB. The cast and crew were amazing. I’ve never felt so close to any other show as I feel for this one and never will again. Thank you Fede for those beautiful words. They touched my heart deeply. Now I need to keep voting on the PCA as a thank you to all. xoxoxo Love BATB forever

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    Maggie said:
    15 October 2015 at 20:29

    Beautiful…Federica..Us beasties have had the privilege to enjoy three (plus one more yet to come) unforgettable years/seasons during which friendships have been made and sharing and creating what is good for the beloved BatB TVShow. “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened “- Dr Seuss (tweet by our KingBeastie Austin)….well it IS hard not to cry really…our love for the show has grown very deep…. matters of the heart.

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    Mary R-G (@BATBVINCATfan) said:
    20 October 2015 at 6:24

    Thank you so much Frederica, for expressing so beautifully & eloquently how we all felt on that dreaded day!
    I’m still trying to come to terms with what I’m feeling & find the words to express all the mixed emotions & thoughts that continue to swirl around in my heart & mind! I will never forget the amazing journey we were all blessed to share!

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    Inger said:
    20 October 2015 at 17:06

    Thank you! It was expected but we still have some eps of S3 to look forward to in swedish TV. And next summer all of us will watch S4 over and over again. Guess everyone has bought the DVDs and we will probably wear them out! The cast and the crew have given us so much. And I have never ever experienced a chemistry such as Jay Ryan and Kristen Kreuk.

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    Ceci said:
    30 October 2015 at 1:59

    Thank you…. this show was more than just that. It had a life of its own… a life the fandom breathed into it. I will forget other shows in my lifetime but never…ever this one

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