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He was the first one.
A few minutes before everyone else, Tom Ellis called them, the fans, and with a tweet telling his true sadness, confirmed that Fox had cancelled Lucifer.


After his, a river flowed…
The shocked showrunners – the 3 tweets sequentially written by Joe Henderson tell a lot of a real dismay.
Cast, all of them  with a broken heart.

Though, it was a moment.
Just a blink of an eye to shake off a tear looked out.

8 minutes after Tom’s tweet, even before Joe’s signal,  fans slammed their eyes – they could not be wet at that moment-  made a deep breath, stretched out their hands and, since that moment… They have never stopped tweeting.

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It would not be enough the space here on WordPress to show the enchant, the magic and the overflowing power of an event  that both Socials and TV series had never seen to happen.
There have been other battles, oh if there have been any! In the last 20 years, fandom of one rather than another TV series have echoed more than once their roar of protest and non-resignation to a declared and marked destiny. With disparate results.
However, Lucifer’s cancellation reaction tells a story never told before.

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From 4pm EST on Friday 11 May, on Twitter and on the Internet there is no room for others but  Lucifer. Even now, as we write. And who knows how much longer.
The 2 hashtags chosen, the first #savelucifer, at the battle cry launched at the news of the cancellation, the other #pickuplucifer about 15 hours later, when fans feared the first could lose visibility  – Not even fans were aware of their strength – the 2 hashtags echoed unstoppable on numbers that talk about more than 4M tweets for #savelucifer, 6.7M engagement, 2.9M for #pickuplucifer, with 4M engagement, the hashtag #Lucifer that –  not to disfigure – in 2 days brings back more than 1 million Tweets.

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Tom Ellis is the second most typed name online after Donald Trump – call us Tom when you feel ready, and a #Tom4President is arranged in no time! –
5 Among names of showrunners and cast are among the 20 most typed of Twitter.
Hours and hours, more than 5 days now,  on World Trends.
A sequence of national Trends with the intensity of lightning during a summer storm: US, a lot, then Canada, Brazil, UK, Italy, Spain, Malaysia, Turkey, Romania, Hungary, France, and countless others.
One night, on Monday, while the SEASON FINALE aired, no one will ever forget.
At least none of those that were there.
And we were so many. Really many.

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Why, how can you forget that finale ?!
How can you forget  40 minutes of television have managed to connect 3 years of stories and emotions, anxieties and trepidations, to collect them all under a pair of white and bleeding wings and then, momentum, everything back in flight to the future, tomorrow,next chapter to tell, next emotion to share. Together.
If the fight to save Lucifer was a passionate but blind fight in the days before the finale, since Monday, it has become the unstoppable march of those who know that it is not over because it can not be over. Not this way.
Not only for the consistency and validity of the plot put together by Modrovich and Henderson, or for the amazing cliffhanger built to project the audience directly to next moment, let alone next season.
So far storyline has been unraveled so consistently, anyone can easily realize the road traveled so far is only part of the journey, nothing but distant from its proper end.
It can not be over this way, mostly because of aspects maybe worthier than any practical or technical evaluation of Lucifer as a show.

The emotional reality created by the show, the empathic dimension in which all the involved subjects have found connection, from showrunners to cast, from crew to fans, has generated a wave of sharing – as emotions as goals – so unexpected and impetuous to shake the foundations of a system, speaking a new language, writing new rules.
Because it’s not a protest that’s been setting up uninterruptedly since Friday.
Those you read on cast and crew accounts are not fitting expressions, more a battle cry that resounds worldwide, echoing from people to people, protagonists or audience, everyone ignited by the same passion, the same certainty that there will be no end to the battle until there is a future for Lucifer.
Never seen.
It has never happened before.

Go to read Tom Ellis’ tweets: you will find a true leader.
Read them all, DB Woodside and Rachael Harris,Aimée Garcia and Lesley-Ann Brandt, Kevin Alejandro and Lauren German, and Ildy Modrovich and Joe Henderson, brave warriors dressed in armor of passion and sensitivity, humor and sincerity.
Go on Twitter and see how they were fearless and generous in leading an army of indomitable ones, ready to put their hearts at risk, ready to follow them to Hell, if necessary, to give Lucifer another day, another night at Lux.

They were not alone.
Where reaction to Fox cancellation struck, it was,paradoxically, outside the sphere of “interest” related to Lucifer.
Journalists, writers, influencers and bloggers have not hesitated to join the campaign to save Lucifer, tweeting alongside fans and cast, all of them writing meaningful words on show, giving space and voice to Tom, ILdy, Joe  and the other cast members.
Scrolling through timeline of the two hashtags, it was surprising and exciting to see how many insiders, “colleagues” came in, siding in favor of the show.

Other fandoms, then.
Oh, other fandoms … they brought  tears in our eyes.
Nobody held back. Many, really many raised on the timeline to leave their help, maybe a single tweet, a single hashtag, but the strong legacy that no one understood reasons of Lucifer’s cancellation.
Nobody agreed on it.

And nobody gave up in this 5 days of fight. Nobody ever thought of it. Nobody.
Ildy Modrovich and Joe Henderson will survive this adventure with carpal tunnel for the hours spent online alongside the fans.
Tom Ellis – that while we finish writing is fighting tooth and nail online on BBC spreading how much Lucifer is worth it – Tom, when this extraordinary battle he is fighting with pride and charisma of a true leader will be won, well …  he will sleep.

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Lauren, Rachael, Lesley-Ann, Aimée, Kevin, DB will return to consider their phones harmless cells, no more weapons to fight for lives of their Chloe, Linda, Maze, Ella, Dan and Amenadiel.

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Fans, well, even the fans will rest.
It has been exciting to see them to interchange one another, to say good morning and goodbye, to take no more than 3 hours of sleep a night, then back online, there again, not just to post hashtags but to joke and to dream, together, resolute not to give up.
No matter how long it will take.
Lucifer deserves a new home.
Script deserves a new blank sheet.
The awareness that this adventure is nothing but another step on the way, another stage of the journey is truly strong in everybody’s heart.  Reading this awareness in the fans’ words, listening to it in Tom’s voice, it’s such an inspiration about value and meaning of sharing emotions and empathy…

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But YOU, person in charge in the control room, why should you make a phone call to say you want to pick up Lucifer ?!
Do not do it because the whole world has been screaming online since 5 days that is worth it.
Do not do it to ensure the most powerful advertising campaign ever seen – the battle to #savelucifer is over on Wikipedia! – And do not do it because it’s free.
Do not believe Tom Ellis, showrunners, Bruckheimer film’s producers who crazy tweeted alongside the fandom … Do not believe the journalists and influencers of the sector, but above all do not believe fans. What do they understand about television ?!
They are not the ones that will crowd the lucky channel that will broadcast Season4!

You, person in the control room, do not listen to anyone.
Simply, close the door of your office and take only 40  minutes, watch an episode. The first maybe, or even the last one, doesn’t matter..
What matters is what will happen next.
You will be stunned because you will not understand how someone has thought of putting an end to such a good thing.
But you will not be able to see your reasons or your convenience yet.
It will not matter then.
You will have gone further.
And there will only be one thing you will want to do.
To have an active Twitter account on your mobile phone to proclaim strongly Lucifer is worthwhile,  Lucifer must have a new home, history can not stay untold.

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However you do not need a Twitter account.
You just need to pick up your phone and do that  call.
Because you too, like us, can not help but know what will happen to Lucifer tomorrow.

Federica, Elisa, Angela



Lucifer – Season 3 Episode 20 – The Angel Of San Bernardino

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It’s a weird episode, The Angel of San Bernardino. Unusual..
Not many “facts” happen but all moments are linked by a common thread.
Characters too, all of them are linked by a common thread, whilst living different situations.
It starts as a moment of research then, throughout it, each of them comes across a discovery, a new awareness to deal with.
Conflict, more than research, is what everyone lives. Conflict with external reality but also with each one’s inner self, the most intimate part of oneself, the one that many times we would like to be silent.
Human or supernatural they are engaged in the search for what they believe is lacking in making their existence complete and, ignoring Lucifer for a moment – or maybe not, then we’ll see – nobody gets what they thought they wanted, that everyone is struggling in an inadequacy that leads them to ask disturbing questions, opening new and different scenarios to experience.


Dan makes us smile when he ends up a memorable fool just because he tries to let go, to live the moment, to stop hesitating with Charlotte, though it is not him to behave this way just to please a woman!

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Charlotte then, cannot decide what version of herself she wants to be, the old one or a new, undoubtely conditioned by Lucifer and Amenadiel’s revelations. It’s a torment to get to understand that everything we live changes us forever and we cannot repudiate what we used to be, just to learn to live with it.


Amenadiel has to deal with his anxieties for what he believes are his father’s expectations, maybe he starts wondering what he wants to be, what he wants to do to feel right with himself, getting anxious to take one or other direction whilst endlessly wondering which is the right one. He has to be himself, to be true to who he really is, to recover what he has lost, that he misses so painfully.


Maze, after the bitter disappointments suffered, after the pain of feeling so inadequate in the human dimension in which she had tried to integrate so badly, looks both blinded by desire for revenge and determined to silence emotions that made her vulnerable. Basically she is kind of back to who she used to be – who we would have expected her to be – a demon, distant and unscrupulous with no grips of weakness towards those who decided to punish. Lucifer, in this case.
Noone should be too surprised she chose Pierce as her ally in her vindictive thirst. He has been chosen just because it’s functional to her goal, even if she lets him think the opposite.


Pierce has only one purpose in mind and he thinks to be totally unbeatable in pursuing it. His determination is as strong and rooted as to make him vulnerable.
At least that’s what he thinks until expectations of Chloe, seeing him in a completely different way from who he is, make him waver.
“I could not hurt her so much,” he tells Lucifer.


The way to happiness cannot be to get what they want, what each of them thinks they need, till what they want does not fully respond to who they are.
Dan, Charlotte, Amenadiel, Maze and Pierce have to find themselves in order to move on.
It is a special touch in this episode, the fact all of them are surrounded by actors, by people who simulate roles that are not theirs, as if they were a warning to the need to be themselves if we want to find our place in the world.

And Chloe? Lucifer?
For Chloe and Lucifer everything we said about the reeling in search of what we believe we need, the need to deal with ourselves and who we are before reaching what we want, well, probably all of this is even more valid for Lucifer and Chloe than for anybody else.

Please don’t tell us Chloe’s momentum towards Pierce seems rash and reckless or that you can’t recognise Chloe in that momentum.
Because if you say so, you forget everything about Chloe and her story.

Chloe is such a good girl. She had a hard life, yet she did everything the right way.
She always does everything right.
She’s fantastic at work, commits herself to be the best mom ever for Trixie, she’s understanding and open to everyone. Everything in her life seems to come before herself, her wishes and needs.
Have you ever tried it? Have you ever felt how tiring and frustrating it is, always putting aside what you would like to be, do, say, try, because “this is not the right time” ?!
If it happened to you, even just once in your life, even only for a while, then we should not explain anything about Chloe’s state of mind, nor about the momentum that drives her to Pierce in this episode.


Does she love him?
Of course no, she does not love him. She does not even know him. She does not know anything about him actually.
She wrongly believes to love him and she holds that “love you” too late back in her throat, just because she desperately loves what Pierce represents or can represent in her life.

Pierce is there. Until the fateful moment, he does not hold back, on the contrary, he urges the intensity and consistency of their relationship. It is he who initially rushes the times, he who does not hide.
It’s a presence on Chloe’s day, and she needs a presence in her day. She’s so tired of being alone with everything that matters to her.
You can say that all of us had this feeling she loved Lucifer…
Of course she loves him and she tries to make him understand it in every possible way. Oh, she has been trying to make him understand for so long!


Every time Lucifer made her think of her being loved in return by his being wonderful with her, he then changes his behaviour and inevitably brought her back to sidereal distances by feeling loved.
The uncertainty and the inability to understand Lucifer’s behaviours hurt so silently but incessantly, now Chloe is almost convinced of her unrequited love. She comes to believe he feels simply and boastfully perhaps, gratified by his presence at her side, fulfilled by their partnership, with no involving of any demanding or lasting feelings.
She tells him in that cold room, at the station, before telling him what Marcus represents for her, she urges him to tell him why he is so disturbed by that relationship, why he hates they to be together.
Then Lucifer just replies Pierce is Cain …
How can you think of being loved, how can you not give up, even if the moment you are about to say to love another, he does not do anything to stop you, he does not simply say “why? I love you”
How, when he comes out with one of his metaphors you have never understood and you cannot justify anymore, because he goes too far, too distant from giving you any hope?!


Here she is, our Chloe.
Here she is in her struggle and reeling between the ideal happiness, the dream and what she has at hand.
In the end she convinces herself it can be enough, gestures and presences that, like a surrogate, seem to fill the voids she has inside, the chance to have a bit of serenity maybe disguised as another kind of happiness, not the one she dreamed of but maybe the one she can feel comfort by.

And Lucifer?
What does Lucifer do?
How can he complain now, after he had invited Pierce to stay when he wanted to leave, after he has pushed Chloe in Pierce’s arms in every way, without a fight?
Have you ever put yourself in Lucifer’s shoes?
Have you ever been the monster, the evil who fell in love with the angelic and special being which nothing and nobody would be enough for, just imagine the Devil?

We do not need to dwell on what his story and his feelings towards Chloe have been in these 3 seasons, we have everything in mind as we did the whole ride yesterday.



The reason Lucifer does not seem to fight, the reason he gives Pierce prairies to win space in Chloe’s heart, it is something only Linda has sensed, which even Maze cannot imagine.

Lucifer loves Chloe.

He is not in love. He does not have a crush. He is not dealing with an unexpected feeling that he can not handle.
Lucifer loves Chloe.
He loves her so consciously and intensely that he loves her much more than himself.
He loves her so desperately that he cannot consider himself worthy.
He loves her so much that he goes further.
Chloe surprised him more than once showing herself to be ready to understand, accept, and start from there to love him.
He always pulled back. Their mutual love would not be enough in Lucifer’s eyes.
The terror not to make her happy, the awareness of risks due to his identity, the deep sense of inadequacy are stronger than everything else.

Till now.

The status quo of their relationship was everything he felt he could give himself.
Nothing more.
To feed his desperate heart in her closeness, without her understanding or suffering.



Chloe’s momentum towards Pierce, the illusion that she could be happy with him was enough for Lucifer to take further steps back.
Chloe’s happiness. Only that counts. He cannot make her happy. If it is to be Pierce who enlightens her look, then Pierce it must be.
Lucifer’s heart, so badly wounded in the past, will survive this wound.
This fall cannot be worse than the others.
Maybe this is different. Maybe this is already hurting too much,
then to rethink to past wrongs, to focus on resentment, to suffer old suffering seems a good way out but it isn’t. It is not enough.
Nothing can silence despair.
It is only appearance. Maze is the only one to fall for it and when even her deception is revealed, Lucifer can fully embrace sorrow, to live the risk of seeing her happy, or hurting her, to try anyway.
When you have nothing left to loose, you have nothing more to pretend because his love cannot be denied he has to do everything to protect her.
Cost can be high but he has to do it.

Lucifer comes there late.

Not even the illusion, the surrogate of that safe haven she needed too badly worked for Chloe.
Fragments of her heart lie scattered on the floor in the dim light of fire burning in fireplace.
Watching the love of his life, desolate on that sofa, shreds of Lucifer’s explode into a thousand sparks unable to restrain, to restrain pain and anger.


They did the wrong thing both, Lucifer and Chloe, even if for the right reasons.
The price to pay was very high.
Their two broken hearts.
Together they can heal, fragments of the one to be glue to those of the other.
Who knows how long it will take them to find it out, to want it to happen.

At the end of the episode however, Pierce is the to have shown the ultimate sacrifice, that change of heart that made him realise his wrong in using Chloe, his affections for her causing guilt which makes him break her heart….

And break his curse.

The hurt doesn’t show; but the pain still grows
It’s no stranger to you or me
                                                         Phil Collins


Edited by Lisa

Ben Wesley In Jay Ryan Words

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Before the Season finale of Mary Kills People airs on Monday, we lingered on how Jay Ryan told his character, Ben, and his growth in season 2.



“Once Mary enters Ben’s world, it’s turned upside down again.
She has a power over him that breaks all laws and gravity. She really is more in control of the relationship this season.




This season his undercover work is more offhand and he’s playing outside the ring a little bit, he doesn’t expect to see Mary at all.”

“He’s putting the events of Season 1 past him.
Frank has told him that Mary’s trouble and he’s going to get in a lot of trouble too if he goes down that path, but he does.”

Mary and Ben are two people that like to play outside the rules.
They play outside the realm of their occupations, and live on the line a little bit. Ben’s a lonely guy, he’s got his tail between his legs a little bit. I guess Mary is dangerous and he likes that about her, and it makes him feel more alive.”




Being undercover, you engulf yourself in the world of the person you’re trying to take down.
You’re both human, so emotionally you get attached, but at the end of the day you have to arrest them–but that doesn’t stop those feelings. I think he’s a little confused if his feelings for Mary are real, or if they’re just a placebo effect of him doing his job.”
from The TV Junkies – Mary Kills People Actors on Ben and Mary Relationship and the Season 2 Power Struggle – Kelly Townsend – January 16, 2018


Do not miss Ben in season 2 finale of Mary Kills People, tomorrow at 8/7c on Lifetime TV

Mary Kills People Season 2 finale part 2 – Fatal Flaw

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They say in the moment
before you die
you see your life,
a spat of film strip,
the bad and good,
nightmares and dreams,
unfolding before you.
Your first dog.
Your first cigarette.
Your first love.
A friend who became a stranger.
The tree you planted
when you were five.
These moments come up
and grab you.
Live and steady.
And then they let go.
Receding into the past.
Before parting ways,
your body is weightless,
hovering in place for what
feels like an eternity.
This is so you have
enough time to say goodbye.
But you don’t realize it.
Because it’s all of a moment.
A speck in time
in which you exist.
And then not.
Just a moment.
Before it’s all over.”
Justin Giallonardo, MaryKills People Season 2 Ep6

 I guess if Mary Kills People has its fatal flaw as a show, then it’s a passionate, fool love for what makes life meaningful.

This season finale, astoundingly poignant, pulls the strings of both seasons’ tale, links by hand all characters encountered on the stage. Actors and extras of a higher story of which maybe they were unaware.
All gathered together like Brendan’s friends saying his goodbyes in the woods, each one with its verses, each one with its fragment of life lived, to build the message, the legacy of this wonderful show.

Why Mary Kills People is a show captivating for the audience, involving intimately things we do not know or want to talk about.
What we know is that only something which has involved intensely in its genesis, can involve in turn.
What we rather want to highlight is how every single component, every single detail contributes to compose this valuable tapestry, the more precious, the more rare.

So let us stand up to applaud anyone who took part in this show.  The 3 fantastic, surprising directors – the level to which Holly Dale had left the bar last year seemed unattainable – to the writers, poets of intimate feelings as ancient elegies rather than just simple screenwriters.  To musicians, able to tell with notes and songs what could not be said with words.  To photographers and editors leaving us speechless.  To costumes, make-up, prop department, location scouts, who set them up, to the guy who brought them  a cup of  warm coffee in the cold of  Ontario autumn…
All those who helped make this show true, above all others.
True but at the same time, poetic.
Thank you.


To the actors, all of them, generous interpreters of characters and personalities. Soul donors. Their talent second only to the devotion with which they have been committed to make Mary, Des, Ben, Nicole, Jess, and Olivia, Brendan, Germaine, Heather, Noemi , Betty …all true.
All of them: Caroline Dhavernas, Richard Short, Jay Ryan, Abigail Winter, Charlotte Sullivan, Rachelle Lefevre, Salvatore Antonio, Karen Le Blanc… All.

To those two brave women who have defied the custom, ignored the easiest way, choosing as the first project to link their name to a story so out of the box, challenging, revolutionary…
Thank You from the heart, Tassie and Amy Cameron.

If Life were a person, Mary Kills People would be its epitaph.
The love verses telling the meaning of an existence.

The season finale did nothing but confirm feelings and emotions that kept us company throughout the whole season.
As in the procession in the woods, protagonists  marched for us with their fragment of story as their legacy.
They marched for us and for Mary.

The entire season was designed as a path of awareness for each one of the characters, from Mary to Des, to Jess, Nicole and Ben.
The patients who we saw dying in the episodes made their farewell a testimony of values, leaving to Mary and Des but also to Nicole and Ben and finally to Jess, a message as a sort of responsibility, arousing not only emotions but deep reflections in each character’s inner being.

During this last day in the finale, we see all protagonists committed, in one way or another, voluntarily or involuntarily, to make life-changing choices, deciding how to fill, frame by frame, that footage that will flow before our eyes in the last moments, choosing how to give worth to life.
It is all in choices and awareness in the path that brings everyone together in the end, in a clearing in the woods, in the light of candles surrounded by marigolds.


Jess, with the delicate but intense touch of Abigail Winter’s talent, surprises us positively, confirming an esteem that is unlikely to be questioned.
She finds out the nature of Mary’s clandestine work. She finds out it in the most brutal way yet she does not bat an eyelid. Her acceptance, which reminds us once more that nature of love is to love, not necessarily to save or understand, is second only to Mary’s candor in opening up to her.
When the situation is desperate and you put a lot on scale, it is not worth wavering and holding back.
So Mary can be sincere and honest and true in confessing her daughter that there is all of herself in what she does and she does not know why nor can she be different – Bravo at the poignant artistic moment of Caroline Dhavernas that goes beyond stealing us a tear. Beyond acting, beyond  awards, beyond TV or maybe giving a new definition of TV entertainment just as the whole show did.
Jess does not need anything else. Nothing more than to know who her mother is, to be able to love her completely, to understand that she is really  loved in turn.
Jess and Mary choose without fear of being themselves and their choice leads them to stand side by side to face together what happens.


Nicole has not always understood Mary’s motivations. Quite the contrary.
Not just because Mary had kept them hidden at first. There, Nicole had been quick and ready to get a clear idea of ​​her sister’s actions but why the reasons, she had not always been able to share.
Embracing enthusiastically Des’ project of the hospice, Nicole too takes her position beside Mary, choosing in turn.
If to be Mary’s sister, if to have the only family left in Mary means to be part of Mary’s life as much as you want her to be part of yours, Nicole is there, she does not hesitate anymore.
With enthusiasm, positive inclination, involvement and “vibes”, Nicole’s path leads her to look forward enriched by her experiences thanks to Mary.


Des … Des is the person who has changed more since the first season.
Eight months of reflection and rethink have given him a great advantage on the way to the  awareness.
He has the clearest ideas and the deepest doubts.
He knows exactly, in every moment of his adventure with Mary, what he is doing and why he is doing it. His awareness gives each of his actions a more meaningful and deeper value.
We must bow to Richard Short, so extraordinarily the Master of this eclectic and multifaceted character, to give him nuances that in the writers’ room they dared not even imagine.
The choice of Des, therefore, with the greater awareness that the events had given him, is more a confirmation than a new choice.
A confirmation linked to a discovery.
The confirmation that he does not need a painful, intimate past to embrace with passion the choice to do what’s good, in a way perhaps still illegal, perhaps unconventional but with no shadow of doubt or fear, right, noble, appropriate.
Choosing what he believes is right inevitably means choosing Mary, is his own fatal flaw. Because Mary is not always aware. Mary is not always fearless. Mary does not always proceed with straight and understandable trajectories.
On the contrary…


Mary is a whirlwind of emotions.  Her apparent coldness is just the garment she uses to cover, protecting herself, an unthinkable vulnerability that comes from an extraordinary emotionality.
Mary is passion, strong and generous in everything she does.
Getting rid of Olivia while staying with Ben, who she loves, seems like a possible goal rather than a mirage. Mary throws herself all without hesitation. She risks and is terrified, not by Olivia, but by what she herself put into play in that operation. However she does not hold back.


When in that car with Olivia’s words, the microphone records that Mary has let Grady bleed to death, it is not the failure of trying to indict Olivia without incriminating herself to tear Mary’s heart and to deliver the knowledge there is always a cost to be paid for the choices made. The bill comes when you least expect it.
Mary, in the car with Ben, is annihilated by pain with no hypocrisy of wanting or being able to justify, because when two people who have pretended and hidden so much from the beginning do decide to be sincere, they change and do it to a true and deep level with no limits.
There is no space, therefore, to drown the truth that brutally tears away what was between them, as the tape that holds the microphone is torn painfully and abruptly from Ben.
Could Mary have chosen differently?
It does not matter.

Planning with Ben in the woods, she chose knowing how much she was putting at risk, though trusting if the plan had worked, so many questions would have been silenced, so many shadows gone, maybe forever.
Wearing the wire in Olivia’s car, she realized at the highest price that the only way to dispel the shadows is to turn on the light, as she had done with Jess.
How she did not succeed with Ben.
If she was ready to pay the price for such a high risk. If she was ready to face such a loss, we believe not.
On the contrary, we believe that the story has still much to tell precisely because it’s Mary who has still so much to say, to understand and to achieve.

So generously committed to helping others give meaning to their life or death, whether one wants it, (fantastic how the two terms express the same concept when related to value and meaning), so taken by sublimating the meanings of others lives, as much as the right to choose how to die can be read as a compensation due for having to separate from affections, Mary unfailingly overlooks her own meanings, wishes and emotions that would enrich with softening tones, that final footage flowing in front of their eyes in the last moments.



Brendan’s farewell ceremony, his death, is almost a warning to Mary – we allow ourselves a standing ovation as deeply as Salvatore Antonio has let the character penetrate within himself to become so intense and extraordinarily touching – a standing ovation to Vlad Alexis too, for making his Germaine intense and truthful, so to highlight Brendan’s character details and nuances.

A warning…

to remind Mary that death is not always or entirely serene. Not just about marigolds and candles.  Sometimes it can be painful and unfair.
Betty’s death was fair and desired, her life had been full and in her eyes, done.
Brendan’s death is right and serene, since he cannot avoid it, he chooses how to live it, filling it with the richness of his affections and fullness of what he has experienced.
How fair, how serene, in comparison, Cho-cho San’s death, on the stage of Madame Butterfly which so surprisingly moved Mary?
Cho-cho San does not want to die. Cho-cho san should not die.
However when the girl’s life had emptied of what gave her meaning, she had no choice.
Because a life without meaning, it is not life.
Cho-cho san challenged her society, the conventions of her world and questioned her belief…
because of Love.
Lost her love, she can die.
She chooses love to give meaning to her life.
Like Betty.
Like Brendan.
Like Ben.


It is surprising that it’s Ben the bearer of the most important message for Mary.
Ben, who for so much time we had difficulty to place. Maybe, or maybe not.
Ben who was there in the shade, uncertain whether to jump to the middle of the stage.
Ben who pretends so well that you never know how much you can trust him.
Ben who does not seem to understand fully and then surprises you by accepting everything at once, redesigning everything because of Mary.
Because he loves her.


Love is worth it being on Mary’s side and we faint every time we see him telling her at that table between a mismatched cup and a doubtful Des, with an intensity that only Jay Ryan could put in that look, overwhelms words saying much, too much more.
Ben fell in love and love gave a different meaning to his life. Love for a woman, not just for what is right and fair
Love made him accept so much, indeed love made him understand so much, accepting was a consequence. Because of love he chose to live with little doubt that there is not necessarily white and black but also a little grey, as all the voices kept whispering on each side of this stage, Love is acceptance.

But in that car, from that cold wire, what Ben heard, went beyond doubt, stained grey of an indelible black.
Ben heard that he has been used. There is no other way to say it.
Used and betrayed.
Love that fills life is not a love that uses. It does not betray you.

On the squalid patio of his camper, Ben – he will understand us and excuse us, Jay Ryan – is Cho-cho San.
While in a clearing they celebrate love that makes peaceful the farewell from life, in the unreal silence of his own clearing, Ben shouts louder than words of Brendan’s poem: death makes no sense if you have not filled your life with meaning.



It matters very little that there is his bourbon or Olivia’s pento in that bottle.
Of course it counts for Mary. It will count a lot for her because the pento or the bourbon will decide the colors of many frames of her footage in her future.

For Ben, however, when he chooses to overflow the content of the bottle, there is no difference.

There is no tomorrow if there is no love.

Pento or bourbon that it is, in that bottle Ben chooses to drown.

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Mary Kills People -Season 2 finale part 1 -Come to Jesus

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“The tragedy of this life is not that it ends so soon … but that we wait so long to begin it.”

‘Come to Jesus’ is the perfect title for the day that this fifth episode of the season of Mary Kills People tells us of.

Certainly a total revelation for Ben and in many respects for Des but for Mary more than anyone else.

Just as though they had been given the opportunity to look at a different perspective of their lives, during a single, hectic, intense day, we see our characters experience and show us, unexpected versions of themselves.

Ben smoking, barefoot on Mary’s terrace. Ben thinking about the day before at Joshua’s and talking openly. Ben disarming when confessing to be ready to protect Mary as far as he can, even if it will cost him his job.

He no longer hides.  No longer does he pretend anymore.  He has chosen resolutely that he wants Mary in his life.


With Mary he is himself and he has never been himself before.

Mary offers the life that he never thought he could live when work took all his dedication.

His parents, idyllically close-knit, is a tough comparison to live up to.  How extremely rare and difficult it would be to meet that person, the only one who lights up your eyes, who snatches a smile and steals your thoughts. Always.

Then Mary came.

She, who was so ironically wrong so must necessarily be the right one. The one that gives meaning to every single thing, to have removed sense from everything.

The one with which it is nice to start and finish each day, no matter how difficult it could be.


Des ends up saving Olivia’s life and reflects on how good Mary and he do when they manage to stay out of trouble, when the death they bring into patients’ stories is as good as their salvation, just as for Larissa’s grandmother.  Probably for Mary’s mother, Joy, too.

In the name of what he believes in, in the name of what is pure and right at his eyes, Des feels ready to look confidently to the future.

Maybe for the first time he is not afraid to get involved, he is not afraid of relying on his abilities.  He had become aware that he has “wasted” himself in the past, on too many occasions.

This time his project is too right to be afraid of failing.

Then there is Mary.


When you are strong,  counting only on yourself, you have set the rules that help you to be who you are.

If suddenly these rules are turned to dust and you find yourself pleasantly upset by the events, a man next to you in the morning when you had just said to have messed up everything, making it impossible, being open and honest with each other when both of you were sure it could not happen, the love and trust to seize a place that you had promised to never leave them.

When these are the promises, even the worst day leaves you with a smile because everything has become so beautiful, it must turn right and fine.

Looking at the facts, Mary’s situation is not simple at all of course. Police totally in her tracks.  Olivia who is likely to be a threat worse when she is at their side than when they had her against them, plus an open investigation on Betty’s death, at the hospital.

What’s more, Jess has chosen this moment to grow and learn that those you care about the most, you must love them because you want it, just because you care, without trying to understand them at all costs.


In the same way you must understand that the love others feel for you in turn can be so strongly protective, seeming difficult to understand and share.

Mary who would like to help her understand, starts sharing, does not have time, events are faster, once again, and dictate different need for her actions.

So, in a hurry to Olivia’s place, to save her, of course, because Mary and Des are the good guys, perfectly aware of what is worth to make their line mobile and what is not.


Then, almost as well as running into Ben’s arms, because something on that day was too good to think that it could not be repeated.

However risky it may be and how high the stakes are, Mary must believe that a solution exists.

She must be determined to believe for her, Ben and Des, there is a chance to fix the unhopeful routine which has came along with them for too long.

Mary needs to ask more to life. To have more.

She experienced the reassuring peace of not being alone in the morning, the strength that comes from sharing. She was moved by grandmother’s exhortation of Larissa  – Remember to always love as deeply as you can – and frightened not to have done it in time on her turn, terrified thinking that with Jess it might be too late to repair, to keep her close.

Strong in her new awareness, Mary can no longer ignore it.

To open to emotions is to expose oneself, obviously. With Jess, with Ben. But without exposing herself, not giving them the opportunity to get close, to be touched by them, get warmed up by them, what else counts?!

This is why this time, in her thoughts, it is really worth risking.

Eight months ago, with Grady on one side and the police on the other, risk had been very high, the stake so high as to make the plan itself terrifying, kind of make it or break it. Mary’s cold calculation and Ben’s feelings, rewarded her boldness.

Today the situation suggests that it is not too simple.


Stakes are exponentially higher, with Des who has already been in jail and Ben putting his job and integrity at risk.

Yet the greatest risk of failure in the plan Mary will explain to Ben and Des, is neither prison nor work.

The three of them are betting something that would change meaning of their lives.

Once they get which things really matter, – how many facets to Come to Jesus, to this title! How many meanings to every little gesture, every expression and every word on this day! – After they taste how beautiful a life worth living can be – even Larissa’s belly throws a message of awareness and expectation about the future! – After they have displaced this veil of discontent and resignation and to have tried what it means to hope and trust, neither Mary nor even Ben and Des, can think of giving it up.


Des has his project, the means to finally be proud of himself. Ben has Mary, his redemption from such loneliness, the warmth of finally being himself. Mary has broken walls and barriers and wants to fight for the contact, too long denied. With Ben, with daughters.

We’ll know in the season finale if the plan to defeat Olivia and mislead police will be successful.

What will happen next? It’s just  another beautiful ride to share.

What will be the price to pay? Will it be a price worth paying?


Nicole’s word of warning to Mary, in the opening of the episode, sound now with deep, meaningful nuances

“You just have to decide at some point, how much are you willing to lose for all this”


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Mary Kills People – Ride or Die

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Talking about Mary Kills People Greg Bryk brilliantly said: “This show is special. Heart so naked. We are all alone, together “.

We have already said it and today, after the tenth episode, the fourth of this wonderful second season, we feel like saying it again. Greg could not have chosen better words to define this show capable of telling feelings, emotions and conflicts so deep and intense. So true.

They are all alone, exposed and wounded, in this Ride or Die.
Des has to deal with the awareness of having made dirty, without remedy, something that he considered pure and ennobling.
The hand that destroys the line of good and evil perfectly knows all that has broken cannot be repaired neither on the table, nor in life.
Moral integrity was swept away in one stroke, like sugar.
You cannot  free yourself of your actions by stripping as you do with clothes, nor by destroying the poison after the bad use has been made of it.
There seems to be no consolation to Des’ sorrow.

Ben is tender in his need to know that Mary is not as bad as he tells her, that she is not lost forever. He is too upright, too pure even to think of being in love with a person who is perverse and immoral. He struggles from within to slam the door to Mary, even if you see in his eyes he believes her when she claims not to have killed Travis. However, he cannot allow her to make his life murky, he moves in the right and the line Des has swept away has been for too long everything he referred to, what he has devoted his life to and he does not feel ready to wipe it away without a reason.
Always moving in a world filled by pretence and lies, the certainty of what was right was his compass which allowed him not to feel perverse in turn to deceive so openly to others.


Mary’s vulnerability touches the deepest chords of his being and he must be force himself, telling her “Go”, driven by the need not to know himself lost in turn.

Mary’s compass has never been the law, what is written on paper. Yet what she has done has always been motivated by a deep-rooted sense of right.
Until now.
We did what we had to do” are her favorite words, as Des tells her, because what they have done to patients has always been, without a shadow of a doubt, for the good of the patients themselves.
Until now.
With Travis’ death Mary’s certainties crumble like the glass of pentobarbital on Des’ chopping board, shattered by the awareness of not having acted for  the good.
It is obvious that she always thought she acted for the best but not even the need to protect her daughters is to mitigate the guilt of having made a mistake.
Even just not to trust, maybe, because the alternative offered by Ben could be valid.
Mary acted following her only known rule, never trusting and the price to pay was very high this time.
Coping with the immorality of the accomplished gesture is not enough.


Losing Ben without appeal, renouncing the only, maybe selfish, source of happiness, the only breach open in years of solitude, is perhaps the worst joke.
She, who had always felt for the others a bit like Germaine’s giraffe, capable of “achieve things out of reach”, now does not recognize herself, she does not know if the game was worth it.

They are all broken, our protagonists, victims of the acts that they were forced to perform.

The turbulence experienced by Jess and Naomi, the difficulty of obtaining from the reciprocal relationship what they seek to make, it creates a picture of greater despair and distrust.


Then comes Joshua.
“Joshua Yang, 21, dying of bowel cancer” is all he has to say about himself.
Des even accuses him of not being up to the other “patients” met so far:
“No, no, no, no, no. You know what, Josh? .I’ve met a lot of people in my time, and they’re largely inspirational and spiritual. They face the end with fortitude. They cherish the time that remains.”
Yet it is Joshua, for whom despair had made him not able to fight for what it is worth, the one who seems cannot suck the little bit of marrow left to live.

Joshua dies and with his death saves everyone.

Mary and Des come back to deal with the raw awareness that saving others is concrete in loving them. In making the gestures needed to give meaning and dignity to other’s life, and death.


At the bedside of Joshua, where on one side parents rips our hearts, especially this mother with that painful image of a modern “Pietà”, gives account and honors the pain of the loss of those we love, Mary and Des find themselves back, returning to be true to themselves – Thank You Brendan .
They find the main way back, maybe not always straight, maybe will not cross only legality territories but it is certainly the right path, the only one worth travelling.
He is why we do this

They are not alone, this time.
Courage, determination and the pain of Joshua don’t save only Mary and Des.  In the most unexpected moment and way, they save Ben’s life and feelings, giving him all the answers he had not been able to find by himself.
Instinct pushed him to Mary, ethics to pursue her and Joshua’s death silences any doubt, frees him from any hesitation.
It is not only Joshua’s pain and despair that heals our character’s wounds.  These are the gestures with which Joshua, before dying, gives meaning to his short life, makes it complete and happy, making it impossible for Mary, Des and Ben to ignore the boy’s legacy.

With no more discouragement, the meeting with Kaley gives Joshua the strength to say goodbye aware he had not lived in vain.  What a great, noble, generous service Des makes him, as providentially Cupid, despite the grip of pain around his own heart.


Joshua opening his heart to Kaley, being true to his feelings no matter what because, as Racine wrote honoring tragedies’protagonists  “Qui n’a plus qu’un moment à vivre, n’a plus rien à dissimuler,” he rekindles in Mary and Des the awareness of the solemnity of their task. No matter that their commitment is renewed on the ground, in a bathroom, rather.

For Ben, now that he has truly understood, now that he has made a choice he cannot ignore, all that remains is to give value to this choice, honoring Joshua’s message of hope.


The words Mary and Ben exchange sitting on the steps in Mary’s backyard, are the most passionate declaration of love which we have been allowed to be witnesses to in a really long time.

“I just watched you kill someone”

“I’m never gonna stop”

To say it with the words of another postcard quote: Love is Not “If” or “Because”. Love is “Anyway” and “Even Though” and “In Spite of”

Priceless the whole moment is sweetly commented by the wonderful You by Kyson:

No man’s an island when he’s had this conversation

No man’s in forest even if he tried to be one

I’ve seen your insights, it’s colorful

But you’re not an island if you try to be one with me


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Mary Kills People – Twin Flames

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So you’re just gonna swoop in and save me?”                   

“I guess so.”


 “Des, no one can save her from herself but from you.”

This episode of Mary Kills People essentially revolves around Mary’s need to be saved or, at least, around those who love her more and their wish of saving her.

Ben, to be honest, has already saved her.  We have already written it and are redrafting the concept.

He has never saved her because Mary’s life is in danger as the risk, for Mary, was always calculated.

Whenever Ben’s path crosses Mary’s, one chance opens up to have a way out of the spiral of ambiguity and danger from which she seems instead.  Inevitably she is drawn and sucked.

You do not have to do it anymore, case is closed.”

This he told her on the beach in the finale of the first season when, showing her the damaging picture he did not attach to the proof, as much he hadn’t attached all their conversations, he proved to have perfectly  understood the truth about the nature of her activities and the connections between Mary, Des, Grady and the terminally ill.

He made a choice.

Something in Mary struck him so much that he chose to believe there were something good and right in what she was doing, so much that it worth it protecting her. Saving her from Grady, from an indictment, no matter what.

Mary deserved to be saved.

Eight months have passed and Ben has not changed one iota.

He finds her out on the subject as he investigates a house, seeing her stealthily sneaking a very suspicious  bottle of rum in her house.  She asks him to throw the man out which he obeys not battering an eyelid.

When the reason for everything is unveiled, his reaction is one of those that makes his armour shine, the Knight that he is.


“I will deal  with Olivia…It’s what I do… Go home. Live your life”

Had the mould to have a person like Ben been broken and if he was not so hooked by Mary, there would be a line out of that camper. Granted.

 Because Ben does not reproach, he does not criticize, he does not judge.   Her goals understood or not, he simply accepts Mary and is aware, perhaps more than her, of how the situation is really messed up and dangerous.  He has the means of saving her, pull her out of the mess she has slipped into.

By asking her to follow him to the station, once again he gives more profound facets than the obvious ones to the meaning of rescue her.

Not only trying to protect her from Olivia but the chance of taking another path, doing the right thing, crossing that line back.

How strong is Mary’s temptation to surrender to the way offered by Ben? How intense is the desire to trust him?

 “Maybe I ran into him for an option”

She tells Des with the need to be true deep in her voice.

The story, for now, takes another turn when the episode ends with Travis dead in the back seat of Mary’s car.

Travis died because Des poisoned him.


 Des, who Annie catches dashing off. Des, who with his strong ethics, has never had a doubt or a perplexity about what is moral and what is not, about when to break the law is not to do something wrong and what limit instead does not go wrong … He poisons Travis so that Mary can’t kill him by herself..

 Another rescue, certainly different in the dynamics, but totally identical in the ultimate goal to save Mary, Not only from an imminent danger, but more and more from the impossibility of being saved.

There is a common urgency in Ben and Des’ attitude towards Mary. The will to protect her from the thought of being alone to face what she has to face.

Two really different personalities, two forms of love that are not really comparable, yet, at the showdown, both do not hesitate to question their beliefs, to expose themselves, to keep her safe from that feeling of never recovering, with which she seems to inevitably dance like someone, fascinated by the flames. She stops, instead, in place of fleeing.

Mary is safe. For now.

Ben has to deal with the ruinous course of his investigation.

Des has to face demons that his conscience won’t allow him to hide from himself.


But Mary is safe.

 Thanks to Des and Ben she returns home and hugs Jess because nothing is worthier than family in her heart.

We don’t know for certain if Mary is or not aware of the value of her friends actions, of why they put so much at risk.

We do not know how much she realizes that all the care and the courage and determination, have been for her.

Simply because in their eyes she deserves it. In their thoughts she has a right to her chance of happiness.

There is such a tenderness and a vulnerability in Ben and Des, when Mary is involved, which, while in the story it amplifies her own vulnerability, in our eyes it gives credit to Jay Ryan and Richard Short of an intensity a depth and a balance of interpretation that only the ones most capable of empathy can find within themselves.


As for Mary … Mary has never been saved before. From noone. Ever.

She had to help her mother to commit suicide to stop her suffering.

She had to raise her sister because without a father and with that mother, who else could’ve taught Nicole to live?!

She was so motherly with Kevin who maybe filled her dinner table, but certainly did not clear her mind of worries.

She is so used to not letting go, not counting on anyone, only trusting her strength and options.  She does not even know how to handle either Des’ generosity or Ben’s momentum.

She has always been alone. To think she has to get by herself has always been natural to her.

Loneliness has been her strength.


Words are not enough here to tell how Caroline Dhavernas is masterful in making this woman alive and true from within, so incredibly concealed but multifaceted.

Everything about her palpitates Mary’s pulse and there will be no recognition for which she will not be proudly deserved for one of the most beautiful tv characters we’ve seen in a while..

 Mary is alone which she thinks is the only way to go.

This is why Brendan and Germaine upset her so much by undermining her certainties.

“We were each other’s twin flame.”

“Mirror souls.”

 It does not matter that they are no longer together in a romantic sense. It does not matter that they were not perfect for each other. There are neither perfect people nor perfect relationships.


What exists, in this season even more than in the previous all the characters seem to whisper it insistently to Mary, what exists is the consoling force that comes from bonds, the cathartic power that comes from not feeling alone.

 One of those quotes printed on posters and postcards which says that

‘You Cannot Save People. You Can Only Love Them.’

 It’s all in Ben and Des’ choices. In Brendan and Germaine’s, all in loving without guarantees but still loving, the message of salvation that everybody wishes Mary to get and to treasure, to give meaning to the pain around her which sometimes seems too much for her too.

Pain, like mess, cannot be avoided.

 However it can be shared because you are not alone.


 “There are certain people that just keep coming back into your life no matter what happens.”

 We must be good at choosing when to give them a chance to stay.


Edited by Lisa